Change can be a sticky process ...

A few days ago I started a journey. I flew to the other side of the world, to the land of clogs, tulips and charming woodlands, gorgeous Holland.

It was a long haul flight from Sydney, Australia and during the process, being blessed (though it sometimes doesn’t feel like such a blessing) with a highly attuned sensitivity to my energy field, I noticed something odd.

Context first.

Before I left, my Guidance said that my return to Sydney would mark the beginning of a new cycle for me. I got very excited, choosing to forget the old saying ‘what the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls the butterfly’.

As an aside, I also had Archangel Michael rock on up to my room the night before I left letting me know he would be with me on the journey and I would be safe. Cue to a vision I had whilst in the half-asleep, half-awake, can’t sleep in this plane seat state, of a massive angel pushing the plane from behind.

Both legs of the 20 hour plus journey ended with the same announcement from the pilot, “we have had strong winds from the south and we have arrived ahead of schedule”. Well, I thought to myself, the south is the direction associated with Archangel Michael, and thanks for flying angel airlines.

So, context for the journey, imminent new life cycle, spiritually supported, though caterpillar self might not be so enthused.

Cut to me landing in Holland and realizing that they astral field is completely different here! Charming. Quirky. Unique. I love it, but it isn’t what my body is used to in Sydney. A bit like eating a particular diet and then suddenly eating something else. It might be yummy, but if you aren’t used to it, there can be an adjustment period.

I will be away for six weeks which is long enough that I cannot continue to be plugged into my old home base energetically, I actually have to unplug and ground here to function well, which means navigating a new astral field too. The energies and thoughtforms of the community in Sydney that I would normally plug in to (without being so aware that I did it until I really had to unhook during the flight over here) are just not available to me.

It has been a type of shock energetically to my system, despite my meditation being focused on really grounding to the energy field here, I find myself psychically in a limbo – can’t connect to my old astral reality, and haven’t built my new astral reality here as yet, yet my astral body wants to hold on to what has been familiar in the past. It is like trying to separate two pieces of paper with glue still in between them - the glue pulls and holds even as the separation takes place. The paper might need to be moved to another scrapbook, but that glue is holding on for dear life!

Spiritually, I feel the same (because spirit is beyond time and space) but energetically in terms of my thoughtforms and beliefs, or in other words, my astral field, I am being given the opportunity through forced detachment to experience something new. Yet the process is sticky to say the least. There is an innate gravity towards that which is familiar which is very strong (and which may also explain a phenomenon which I have never been able to understand, which we can just call "why would you go to Egypt on Holiday and choose to eat at McDonalds?"). Astral gravity or glue - the phenomena that despite opportunity and effort, can pull you towards what is known rather than into the unknown towards something new.

So you could say that I am having an experience, somewhat unexpectedly, of the stickiness of the astral plane where our maya or chosen illusions – beliefs – thoughtforms about life grow and create the film through which our soul light is projected into the world. No wonder it can be hard work to transform ourselves, not only on the inside, but the actual physical quality of our life experience. We have to be able to dissolve our current films, made up of our personal beliefs about what is and is not possible, and if we want transformation beyond the cultural matrix in which we live, then those have to be transcended too, and it can give rise to an energetic experience of separation anxiety.

Fortunately for me, the same astrological ascendant that connects my energy body very strongly to the physical and emotional environment that I live in (Taurus) also gives me the insight to know what is happening (in esoteric astrology, Taurus becomes the illumined eye of the Buddha, clear vision or clairvoyance – lovely, yes?) and the sheer stubbornness and patience required to stay with it and honour the transformation in process.

I know that it is the light of the Soul that is the ultimate cleansing agent, even of super-sticky-astral-maya, a bit like easy-off bam for the energy body. So whilst I am being cleansed, it is time to be open to new and improved maya (if we are going to live in a world of illusion, we might as well choose our illusions to be as enjoyable and interesting as possible when we get the opportunity to do so).

May you and I rise up, connect with our highest divine essence and be gifted with the energy required to dissolve old attachments that no longer serve us, and experience a miracle of manifestation that once upon a time we would have though only possible in a fantasy. May we become the gorgeous butterflies we are meant to be, and remind ourselves, during our caterpillar moments, that it’s all a necessary part of growth.

Let’s choose well and allow our soul to do the rest… shine on beloveds.