Testimonials of my work and also that I have given are real and I am very grateful for them. When did endorsements become about exchanging favors instead of genuinely being about the work?
Mostly I'll just laugh at what I consider ridiculous situations like this, but sometimes the fire in the belly of the goddess rises up and I get mad about it. Like today. I was so pissed off that this person even asked me. Of course people can ask and I can say no. Which is what will happen here.
Yet even with that in mind, I still don't get it. It just seems like being asked to lie in return for a favor and it cheapens the process for me. Have we forgotten that our word is meant to mean something genuine?
That is what made me mad. It can be tricky enough to find honour and integrity in business, especially in a spiritual vocation, but in this case, it seemed to have just flown out of the window altogether with an icky 'you scratch my back and i'll scratch yours' scenario. No! No! No!
So to find some inner peace around this, I need to find the shadow in me, where I am either doing this (even if it is with the volume turned right down so to speak) or where it represents a shadow opposite in me (ie that maybe I need to be more assertive in my marketing process - to which my inner child goes "ahhh, noooooo! i hate that stuff!!). Not a good mindset for someone who works in the public eye to some extent to have going on.
How can I love the unloveable in this? Working on that one, still. Current take on it all? The Universe is telling me to not be afraid to put myself out there more. I won't sell my soul because there is a part of me that finds lack of integrity too enraging. It's safe to venture out a little more and trust that I'll honour my values.
Hmmm. Feels a little better already. But I am still not doing that endorsement! I can just stop judging the person who asked and have more compassion for us both. Phew!
Image rights - The Goddess of Wrath (c) 2007 Spiffyiffic (Ashley) on Flickr - Yahoo
Special thanks - to the person who requested the endorsement and inspired this blog - love to you and thanks for teaching me to love more!
In honour of putting myself out there more ... you might just fall in love with my meditation CD as many have done before you! Shine on x
Nice blog! I'm glad i found you on Fb too! I hope you don't mind a suggestion of mine? Do you use sites like zazzle.com, cafepress. com, fiverr? They could be a good way to promote your works and to help "remove" stupidity in the streets like headlines on t-shirts, fridge-magnets, cups, etc: My Boyfriend kisses Better Than Yours, FBI - female body inspector, etc. Not everything we see and think of should be about sex, right? It would be much better if there were more nice pictures of mythical creatures, good thoughts, poems from fantasy genre, etc? I'm allanbard there, I use some of my illustrations, thoughts, poems from my books (like: One can fight money only with money, Even in the hottest fire there's a bit of water, Money are amongst the last things that make people rich, or
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Let's hear soon the way the Deed was done!
Let's listen to the music the shiny crystals played,
let's welcome crowds of creatures good and great...
etc). I guess such stuff sound and look much better than the other we see every day? Best wishes! Let the wonderful noise of the sea always sounds in your ears! (a greeting of the water dragons' hunters - my Tale Of The Rock Pieces).
gorgeous! thank you! shine on : )
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